It was in the middle of August.
The sun was near the beginning of setting.

Shadows had fallen under the trees where the remaining sun hadn’t slipped through the full branches.Today was so breathtakingly beautiful through Brendon’s eyes. He didn’t want to waste any of it, and he believed that it was too good to recycle.

Brendon lead Ryan outside through the backdoor. He has decided to cook out for Ryan and him. Just a simple meal of hotdogs and hamburgers, even though he knew Ryan would enjoy a salad much more. The aroma of the grilled banquet trailed after the two of them as they took a seat at the empty picnic table.

Brendon rested the food against a clothed picnic table that sat happily among the untrimmed grass. He fidgeted for sometime, trying to make sure everything was absolute perfection. Brendon settled himself, eying Ryan as he did the same. A pale smile grazed Ryan’s dim lips once he caught Brendon’s stare.

Tonight wasn’t a picky night for Ryan. He decided on at least trying the food that Brendon had worked so hard on, he thought that maybe even he’d have a little fun…
He giggled for a slight second, watching Brendon dive right into the cuisine. He pondered weather to interrupt his feasting or not… To him, Brendon can be so oblivious! Ryan slowly snatched up a hotdog, afraid of any attack from Brendon (the wild dog). He took a loose grip on the hotdog, eyeing the end.

Brendon enjoyed feeling the wind, tossing itself against his spine as much as he enjoyed Ryan’s company. He soon noticed that he hadn’t actually seen Ryan tonight. He was simply too busy chowing down to pay any attention to him. With the thought, his pure eyes quickly flicked themselves onto Ryan. Who’s half lidded eyes were glued to the tan hotdog. Brendon admired him oddly, holding the half eaten hamburger inches from his chomping jaws. His mouth slightly opened to speak, but a voice was lost. Ryan had slipped head of the hotdog past his lips, allowing his tongue to puncture the tip. One of Brendon’s eyebrows raised with curiosity as Ryan continued his act. The plump hotdog slid slowly further into Ryan’s mouth, then exited just as slow. Brendon felt himself going weak, imagining how it would feel to be that hotdog. This move repeated exactly two and a half times (by Brendon’s count) until an interruption.

“You’re happy tonight.” Brendon spoke against the hamburger, grinning uncontrollably. Ryan giggled, placing the moist hotdog on his plate. He cleared his throat, nodding slightly. Brendon chuckled. “I bet you wonder what a real one tastes like…” He joked. Ryan’s insides twitched at the meanings behind Brendon’s spells. His golden eyes slid into Brendon’s. A spark was set up Brendon’s spine as he noticed how innocent the eyes within his own pare looked. They were attempting to apply the truth. Brendon understood fully what Ryan was trying to tell him.

He shot up from the bench, allowing his hamburger to fall against the unstable plate. His hand quickly snatched a hold of Ryan’s frail wrist.
“Come on!” He said, pulling Ryan along with him. Brendon lead them once again, but this time it was to a new location.

Ryan had been in Brendon’s bedroom many times before, but it has never been in this kind of situation. Brendon shoved Ryan against the mattress playfully. Ryan played by the rules, and the rule was: Allow Brendon total control, and he did. He had propped himself on two boney elbows, as he watched the marvelous show happening right before his eyes. Brendon had tore of his vintage tee and was ready to pounce.
“You didn’t answer my question G. Ryan Ross.” He breathed in his ear, fumbling with his belt buckle.
“Hm? What was your question?” Ryan asked, easing back into the mattress. Brendon lied his naked chest against the neatly buttoned shirt, hugging Ryan’s.
“I asked if you wanted to know what a real one tasted like.” Lust writhed from his lushes lips with every spoken word. Ryan laughed, pressing a bare palm into Brendon’s heart, halting him.
“That wasn’t a question B. Boyd Urie.” He joked. Their eyes locked, and their lips fastened together lovingly. The harsh tension loosened inside of Brendon as he noticed how sincere the kiss was. There actually something behind this… And that excited him.

Ryan pushed his tongue past Brendon’s fleshy lips. All he could taste was the hamburger, but he didn’t dare to complain. He nudged Brendon’s tongue with his own, making sure to listen to his reaction. Ryan indulged himself in Brendon’s deep breathing as his fingers laced through his thick locks. They released from one an other sharply.

“Wow Ry, you are happy today.” Brendon joked, winking happily. Ryan giggled, nibbling on his ripe lower lip. Their lips connected again, this time more passionately. Ryan couldn’t take this game anymore. He was happy today, all thanks to Brendon. He quickly broke apart, taking a sharp hold of Brendon and swapping sides. Brendon scooted himself onto the bed, fumbling with the covers. Ryan didn’t need any of that cheesy blanket shit. All he needed was contact.

He then slid himself down, knees touching the floor. Brendon peaked down at him once he felt his fingertips glide along the rim of his tight jeans. Ryan loosened the belt and began to unbutton the jeans. Brendon just anticipated the ‘job’ weakly. The contents inside of his stomach rotated, causing him to sicken. The butterflies fluttered once a cool breeze swept across his hard member. Ryan admired Brendon with glowing eyes. He did wonder what a real one tasted like…

Ryan pressed his lips into the head gently. Brendon quivered at the sensation of Ryan’s moist tongue bumping against the tip. Ryan didn’t waste time, he then quickly slid Brendon’s dick past his lips. His tongue slithered up and down his shaft as he bobbed up and down. Damn, he does taste much better, Ryan thought as he sucked harder.

“Ohh Ry!” Brendon moaned, shooting his head against the mattress. Ryan smiled to himself as he continued to please. Brendon squirmed along the sheets with sweat dripping from him. “Ryan!” He called as his pace quickened. Ryan was growing weak from the continuous motion.

Brendon rested at the back of Ryan’s warm throat. He allowed Brendon to collect himself before the big finish. “Come on Ry!” He whined. Ryan did as he was told and began to bob up and down again. Brendon moaned loudly against the hot air. “Fuck- Ry!” Ryan loved hearing his name from Brendon, especially like this. Ryan sucked harder, moving faster until his slim fingers wrapped around the remaining skin not down his throat. He thought that this should speed things up a little. So, he began to jerk his hand faster than his bobbing. Brendon let out a high pitched moan. He couldn’t help but smile at this.

Brendon knew that the climax was near. His stomach twitched, his heart pounded faster, his head grew lighter. His whole body was tingling from the blissful experience. “Oh Ry! Ryan!” He cried, loud and hard, bucking his hip up, nearing gagging Ryan. He attempted not to giggle. Ryan soon caught himself and finished the job. This time, he actually sucked. He wanted to taste Brendon fully. He wanted to feel Brendon’s cock in his mouth even after he was done. Brendon didn’t mind this, and he knew what Ryan was doing. That was the reason it was taking so long.

“Fuck! Suck harder Ry!” He whimpered, clenching his eyes shut, trying to finish it himself. Ryan did. Brendon moaned roughly, lacing his fingers in Ryan’s locks. The pressure soon released, ending with a satisfied moan. As Brendon slid from Ryan’s mouth, his fingers had unlaced. His hand limply laid beside him. Ryan swallowed the cum daringly, and pulled himself from the ground. Brendon’s stomach fluttered. His dick tingled. He could still feel Ryan on him… He loved that feeling. His breath was short. He was panting heavily, staring into the empty ceiling. Ryan had brushed off his jeans and flattened his shirt against his concaved abdomen. Brendon propped himself up to admire him. His eyes scrapped along every millimeter on Ryan that existed. Ryan hadn’t noticed this stare, until Brendon grabbed a hold of his hand. He was now yanking him to the bed.

Ryan landed sharply against the chaotic covers. Brendon had tucked himself back into his skinny jeans before resting. His head was lying on Ryan’s chest, eavesdropping on his heartbeat. He breathed along with the calmness while tracing little hearts in a random order. Ryan swiveled his fingers through Brendon’s sweat drenched bangs.

After sweet silent moments, Brendon spoke out. “So, how’d it taste?” He asked, not even really wanting to know. Ryan giggled, sweeping his thin fingers along the hair sitting at the back of Brendon’s neck.
“Better than a hotdog.” They slightly laughed, blushing at their new conversation.
“And the cum?” Brendon asked, peaking up at him innocently. Ryan leaned toured him to the point of noses nearly touching.
“Better than ketchup.” He whispered seductively. Brendon tried to contain himself but couldn’t! He just had to laugh in the most obnoxious way possible. Ryan blushed at first, but seeing how cute Brendon looked, just laughing away made him want to laugh along. Yeah, it was a pretty funny answer, but it was true!

After their laughing fit, Brendon had crawled over Ryan. Their eyes locked intensely for a long while. Finally, their lips connected. When departed, their lips shivered with the feeling of one another.
“I love you Ry-Ro.” Brendon whispered to his lips, pecking them softly. Rapid flowers bloomed in Ryan’s heart. Hearing Brendon say that was sweeter than music itself. He had dreamed those words countless times…
“I love you too, Brenny-Bear.” He smiled cheerfully, pulling Brendon into a tighter embrace.

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Heehee x]
Likey??
Sorry that I was sooo discriptive. My teachers always get on me for that!! Haha
[[[[[[dedicated to Brianne :D (reinventxbrianne)]]]]]]]

Welp, also all summer long I've been hoping that when school starts up again that I will find someone just like him (impossible!!!)
It's almost the thrid week of school and the odd part is that umm... I kinda did x]

Mkay :]
So- there's this boy.
He's 13.
He has shaggy brown hair and beautiful brown eyes.
His smile is gorgeous.
And he's happy alot!!
He seems very care-free.

sound familar yet?

Anyway, let us continue ^-^
He talks to me
He listens to me
He does kinda hate on TH though... But those issues can be fixed :]

And you wanna know the weirdest thing?!
His name is Brandon

o_o

Only one letter away from Brendon!!!
And he's trying to convince me that his real name is Brendon... And that he just thought that it was weird...

=X

And on Thursday he kept bothering me with who I liked.
Finally at the lockers (his is right next to mine!!) I told him who I liked. I poited to him and said, "You." He was socked... He then said, "Oh, I didn't know that!" And then I snatched my My Chem bookbag and went back into the class. He followed a little bit after, coming up to my desk, telling me "We'll talk later." We still haven't...
Then in art I kept begging him to tell me who he likes (hoping that it was me) He wouldn't tell me until we got near the busses (quick escape!) He told me to guess. I would just guess random people that walked by. I told him to guess who I liked. He first said Kevin (first bf of mine) so I guessed Kevin for him too XD Haha! He told me that I had until the end of the sidewalk to guess. I was panicking and then once we made it there, he was standing in front of me. And he said, "The person right in front of me!" I like squealed!!! And he ran to his bus screaming, "IT'S SO OBVIOUS!!!" XD

But then the other day he said that he wanted to keep me guessing if he liked me or now which totally depressed me! Errgg!! But then my bestie from school, Autumn told me that that's just how he is and that he still likes me :]]

YAY :D

OMTH

I am sooo sorry that I haven't been on.

I'm sure you guys miss me as much as I miss you :[

School is such a hassle...

Ohh

I relocated myself on myspace *hangs head in shame*

www.myspace.com/ShannonLoserFace_x
Pleeeze add!!!
I'm on there all the time I can....

Trashed Teens- I am sorry for not posting anything within the last two weeks!!!
I feellllll soooo bad!!

I am so busy now DX

And I love you all!!!!

Hopefully I'll be on more now :]
I'll try my best :D

Okay....

To the lovely Rydon lovers, do you have any favorite fan fics/one shots/two shots/ or anything youd like to share? Because lately I've been craving some Rydon and what I write I'm sick of reading -___-*

Or could you guys reccomend a site? I know livejournal, but IDK how to get to the fanfics -.- and my sister won't show me :[[  

pooh.

But anything is appreaciated :D

Danke <3

p.s. and you can even promote stories you write yourself if you want :] But rydon please!!!

Okey!!! Yesturday I got the letter telling me which teacher I'm going to have this upcoming year :] There's only four you can have but you have all of them for different things like Mr, Lynn [the teacher I wanted] does language arts, Mrs, Tan [other teacher I wanted] social studies, Mrs, Conner does math and Ms, Kirby does science. Well to me I really wanted Mr, Lynn because my brother learned so much in his class and it was the best years of his life. My sister had Mrs, Conner and also learned alot and had so much fun :D But here's the story!

I got bored of being online because nothing was going on, plus Shane [brother] and I were home alone so we were ganna atch Springer and be loud. I quickly got ofline and headed downstairs. When I got to the bottom of the stiars I looked down the small hallway and could see my mommy sitting at the kitchen table looking through the mail and holding a letter. I walked in and Shane was all smiley like always and all, "Hi!!" He's annoying sometimes but I love him n__n Anyway I saw the familur emvalopes my school always sends out. My eyes opened really wide because I knew my future was in that emvalope just awaiting my eyes to believe it. My mom was like, "Shannon, now calm down." Something was wrong... Maybe she didn't want me crying or well... Being freakishly happy x] lol But I snatched the emvalope and went into the other room. She told me to go back into the kitchen so I could read it in there. I scanned through all the boring, "Hope you're having a great summer." Shizz. Then, my heart began to speed up when I head, "Shannon Winter's teacher for the 2008/2009 school year is..." Then poof. It was like my heart turned into stone and just dropped to the floor. "Ms. Shelli Kirby." WHAT!? No, no no... It must be a mistake!! It should say Mr, Lynn on it!!! But my brother told me that Ms. Kirby is really nice and I know she is :] I love Ms, Kirby and she loves me! All of the 7-8 teachers love me :D lol I'm really excited because Skylar is going to be in my class and my new bestie Autumn is in Ms, Kirby's class as well :D YAY!!

Is anyone else excited for the new school year?? :D I am ^.^ My mom told me that it'd be the best school year I'll ever have!! I really think 6th grade was because dude! We were crunk last year x]

I'm listening to Forever by Chris Brown :D heehee!!

bye bye!!

Oh! I have a new user pic on myspace!! Check it outz fos!! 

www.myspace.com/shannonloserface_x

ALSO check out

www.myspace.com/lidobeach

:D You're welcome >.O  

..::Punk Goes Crunk::..

Once Shannon’s room had been cleared by Sheri and Matt relocated downstairs, Craig had decided to chill in Shannon’s room for only a second longer. Alex had to take a bathroom break on the count of all the soda’s he’s been chugging. Shannon had settled on her bed as Craig lingered near. “Thanks for the address, I’ll be sure to get on when I get back to my house.” He smiled to Shannon who was picking at the threads on her blankets. Then he sat on the edge of her bed, she peaked under her bangs at him.

“You’re welcome.” She incoherently responded. Now Craig was making her nervous. Her fingers began to twitch and tug. They were hurting her because she couldn’t control the quivering.

“Craig! Ass down here now!” Called a manly voice. Matt was standing at the bottom of the stairs waiting to leave. Craig nodded, pushing himself from the bed. He slowly tottered to the door. Then, something clicked in his mind, so he rushed back over to Shannon; quickly pecking her cheek. She jumped from the shock. Their eyes met after his lips left her skin. He sweetly smiled at her, she blushed violently; but in a good way. He giggled before he met to door again.

“Bye.” He spoke through the subsiding nerves. Shannon nodded, blushing even more.

“B- Bye.” She sniggered, not being so sure of herself. Craig blushed before slowly closing her bedroom door.

[[<X3]]

“Oooo! Shani’s got a boyfriend!” Teased Alex, peaking his head through the door as Craig left. Shannon blushed, throwing a pillow his way. He closed the door just in time.

“You’re just jealous because I like Craig more than you!” She shouted. The door opened once again. But this time it wasn’t Alex. Brunet eyes caught her catchy gaze. The eyes were sincere. Loud laughing was the backdrop to the situation. Red blotches of embarrassment smeared across Shannon’s pasty face. Craig had heard her… Their eyes locked. His read off confusion to her as hers were sprinkled with pure apology. Craig smirked hiding his raging red face, cautiously rubbing the back of his head, twisting his fingers in with his long hair. Shannon sunk down into herself deeper and deeper.

With eyes set to kill, he had nothing but the glimmer of his cell phone to light his way. His fingers danced through everything in sight. Even clawing his way to what he desired most. The little voice in his head was hankering for it. For the release. Come on Craig! Faster. Find it! You need it. The voice told him. Wanting it more than he did. Then, the settle glow caught it. His box full of sharp objects. His breathing stopped as his fingers entice the box. He quickly snatched it from the hall way closet and rushed back to his room.

ShannonLoserFace_x: GOD! Craig- I’ve been waiting forever!!!! Where have you been?

KittyViolence_Craig: Damn it… Sorry. My mom and I got in a fight sorta thing… I stormed off and accidentally fell asleep :[

lol


Golly, I sure do love my Punk Goes Crunk fan fic :]]

Wow.... that was totally random -_______-

kk.... Let me break everyhting down cuz I iz bored.

I'm sitting at my red computer chair. It is now exactly 3:56 in the morning. I went to bed around 11:something and woke up around 2:something I decided that I needed to take a bathroom break so I did. When I got back I turned down my air conditioner because it was set to the frozen mode. [[dose your air conditioner have a frozen setting?? because mine does!!!!]] Anyway, then I grabbed my hoodie from the teal lounge cair that I hate so much. I admired myself in the mirror. I usually turn on the over head light and stare into my eyes because when they are not adjusted to the light yet, my puples are really small and the iris is super green :] I fixed my hair. I always have killer bed head x] Then I sat down at my comp and checked my brothers downloads he had started before he left. One of his songs weren't fully downloaded so I had to complete it -_-* It took forever... So I grabbed my doodle book and started doodling. I was doodling my favorite lines from the movie Charlie Bartlett [sp?] But I have been wanting to see that movie ever since it first was known about! Trust me it's worth watching :] Kip is my favorite character. He's totally depressed and needs a hug. I won't ruin it for you because it is honestly the best movie of this year! It's pure gold really! After my doodle session the download was done. I logged off and got onto my name. Connected to the internet, checked some stuff. And now I am here. Wearing my favorite jammmmie pants along with my Bill Kaulitz shirt. OWE!! I just scratched myself :[

THERE.

random but you get it.

I'M AM NOW GOING TO WORK ON MY FAN FIC AND EDIT SOME MORE PICIES :D

p.s. I suprised myself today :] I took 241 pictures in one sitting :p well... techincally like 190 :/ LOL

<X3

dinoxcore

p.s.s [[TH VIPS]] Are you guys like totally excited for the Live VIP Chat with Tokio Hotel on Monday?? I know I am :D I was like freakig out when the announced the date :) I can't wait!!

p.s.s I'm going to Lincoln today :] So I may not be on for a while but I sure will have some awesome pics hopefully ^-^  

I'm upset at all you peoples >:(

I'm weely, weely, weeeely upset :[

I can't believe any of you!! You make me sick :[

*cries*

Why would you guys honestly not tell me!!! I didn't like that act you guys pulled :[[

HONESTLY!!!!!!!!

Ferrealz!!!!!!!!!!!!!

How could you guys not tell me how good Mayday Parade is??

XP

BAHAHHAHAHAAAA!!! Skeerd you didn't I? lolz

Sorry, I was just kidding!! havin some fun yo <3 LOL

I'm happy- nice to meet you ^__^

teehee

OMFG!! I'd be mad if that random dude asked my girl to dance x] Sorry, responding to the song!! I only have two of their songs downloaded :] I have Miserable At Best and The Anchor The Keeps My Feet On The Ground, The Wings That Keep Your Heart In The Clouds :]] Their songs are so romantic and beautiful :'] If any Mayday parade fans out there would reccomend a song to me, it's gladly apreciated n_________n

MCDONALDS JEPH PISS IS THE BEST :D
lol!! The Used fans would so get that XP BAHAHHAA!!!!!!!!!!!

I watched my Lies For The Liars Dee Va Dee today ^___^ Then I watched my Tokio Hotel one :] TOLD YOU I WOULD [[in my last journal]] I noticed how much I've changed musically. I used to only like My Chem and TU. Now I like all different types like I love TH and Lil Wayne :D I like Metro Station and Chris Brown, HIM and Lil Mama XP e, more rap has been encorperated into my music library :]]

TRUST ME!!!!!!!! I'm working realy hard on PGC part 2!!!! LIKE UBER HERD!! Everytime I'm on I write at least 1000 words!! Today I wrote like 3000 x] LOLZ

I've already made three banners for the fricken story... I cannot stick wiff banners -_______- But now I think I got it... IT DOESN'T HAVE JARED ON IT THOUGH............... grrrrrrrrrrr. I'll have to put him on now :] lolz!! I messed up cuz I put a pic of Mike and Matt when it's supposed to be Jared... I GET MATT AND JARED MIXED!! SHERI!!!!!!!! Which is which?? Matt is the one with snakebites right? *crossed fingers for no*

lol

I'M DONE RABLING NOWZ :D Danke for listening n.n

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MaydayShani_Parade

hi!

Guess what??
Ya know how Zain was coming over on Wendsday?? Well eerg.... Not anymore :[[ He's sick so yet again another day where I'm alone and having to talk about Bill to myself -________-

I find this unfair!!!!!!!!

When ever I try to have someone over at my house, they some how have 'something' else in the way of hanging out with me.

Don't you guys think that's stoopid as well??? GOD! Let's count all the people I've tried to have over-

_x Dalton
_x Skylar
_x Becca
_x Zain

Not a very long list... But it sure means something!!!!!!! Grrrrrrrg

Now I'm looking for a new user picture.... I look like Patrick Stump if he was a slut in my U-P now x_______x
It seems that I can't even take a good picture anymore -__- rawr

I'M GROWING OUT MY HAIR :D if you guys didn't know yet :] It's like longer than usual so it makes me look odd. I haven't had long hair since I was like... 5. LOL! XP But you know how I can tell it's longer? I can actually fit like most of it into a pony tail x] Teehee

*clears throat*
I haven't eaten in almost 24 hours. No- it's not my choice so don't freak out!! Yesturday I slept through lunch and I didn't want dinner... I flippen sick of hamburgers and french fries. Sorry Bill- but I can't live off those things!!!!!! :P I was about to get a cookie around 1:00 am but then I thought- the wrapper is too loud to open so I'm waiting for breakfast :D But- ik. My dad  like greases everything up so much UCK :[ So I doubt I'll have breakfast either -.- eeeeeeeeerrrrrg :[

Oh!! Does anyone watch VH1?
Because if you watch their new show called I Love The New Mallenium [sp?] Well there is this little part called like Liars of 200_ (yesturday was 01) but the guy Jonny Fareplay I think was his name- He's the one who lied about his Grandma's death on Surviver. Well he does the whole Liar thing but if you listen to the background music very closely... you hear an oddly familar voice sing/screaming... "LIAR LIAR!!!" Now- does that sound familar to any.. hmm let's see... THE USED FANS? :D Teehee!!! I like screamed when I heard Liar Liar (Burn In Hell) playing :]] Made me proud ^_________^ But I ran through my house telling everyone when the whole Liar thing was over n.n They also played other good songs [[why I will continue to watch it]] like Angles and Airways, The All American Rejects, I'm pretty sure they'll play Fall Out Boy as well... Possibly My Chem, I don't know :]

Teehee x.x I'm bored!! And sorta happy ^_^

OMFG :D

:] I loved the dream I had :]]

Okay here is what it was--

I was at school, maybe it was like the second week in and there was an acembly that day. Well I was in Drama class when the people for the acembly arrived. Drama is held on the stage and stuff, and they needed the stage to get ready. Well there was this huge crew that came in and a bunch of body guards so I thought that maybe someone lame like the presedent was going to talk to us. But then I realized that there was more than one person the body guards were surrounding. There was about hmm. Four ;].  Well I was sitting on the floor crosslegged while Zain and Dalton sat next to me. There was another girl there too, she's my firiend and her name is Jasmine well she was sitting on the mini stage our Drama teacher had built with our drama teacher. The crew had scattered, putting up the speakers and amps so the guest could be heard. Well, once the body guards subsided from the group, I noticed two people in caps and sunglasses, one in a hoodie and the last dressed normally. My heart froze and my lungs stopped. It was Tokio Hotel!!!!! They were here to do a show for us!! To greet us into the new year n__n The band sat down with us, Georg sitting by me, Bill sitting on the other side of Zain and by Tom while Dalton sat next to Tom. Gustav sat on the end. We all sat in this half cercle thing around the stage. We all grew bored so Gustav decided to play a game. He got up on the mini stage and stared dancing. Everyone was laughing really hard XP Even Bill was :] teehee XD But then when it was Georgs turn, the crew asked up (the drama class) to leave to they could finish preparing. We accpeted (I should't have though) GRRR and we all lined up in the hall. Obeviously I was the only one who didn't know TH was playing becase even though I had my TH shirt on, like four other people I know had shirts on too!! Zavien had a TH hoodie!! I was about to steel it too x] Braden had a TH shirt along with Jordan and Ferris. I was freaking out when I was standing in line because dude- wouldn't you be freaking out if you got to see a free Tokio Hotel concert?? They made us stand in alphabetical orber in line and I was like the last person cuz my last name starts with W. But when they let us in the gym, they said that you could go anywhere. Everyone took off to the packed bleacher where as Zain and I hit to the floor. It was nearly empty. Only two rows of kids sat on the floor. I was like, "Fuck that! I'm standing!!" So Zain and I did. He was complaining that he wanted to sit by Dalton, I told him "No!!" Because, this is Tokio Hotel we are talking about!!! They were playing a live sow at MY ghetto school! Does it kill you to like stand through a song or two? Then, this dude came out with a microphone and announced- "Welcome to the new school year! Thank you all for joining us today... And I'm happy to intorduce to you... TOKIO HOTEL!" Once the said Tokio Hotel, the whole room exploded!! Everyone jumped up and suddenly, all the kids in the bleachers stormed down to the floor!! When Bill, Tom, Georg and Gustav all walked out everyone was cheering!!!! Then, when Scream started, everyone was like screaming as loud as they could!!! When Bill got to the chorus ya know when he crys "SCREAM!" The whole crowd screamed "SCREAM" Back at him!!!!!!!!!!!! Everyone was pumping their fists in the air and singing along :] It was happiness!!!!!! Pure happiness :) When my fist first hit the air... I woke up -__-

AHHHHHHHHHHHH!!! I can still feel the rush I got just thinking about it ^_____^ That's it-- It's TH ALL DAY :D

<3

[[dinoxcore]]_ShanCyrus

Thats really all I have to say right now...

I just woke up -___________- and I'm still tired... The clock reads 6:34 in the am... and my head hurts...
I swear my soeackers are broken >:E grrrrrrrrrr!!!!!! I was trying to watch a youtube TH video and there was no valume!! I checked everything and shizz... Everything was up as loud as it goes... But I guess not because now you can hear the annoying DING O.O noise when you click stuff -.-

Well by the title.. The base of this journal is wrapped around suicide...

Last night... I tired to kill myself. And almost succeeded... It was around 3 am and my bro and sis were pissing me off... They were critisizing me like always, and I was just through with it... So I vaccuum packed myself under my blanket with my turtle Georg. I was trying to sufficate. All I could so as cry and try to conceal all my air. I couldn't help but breathe fast because my air supply was very low... But I laid there with the blanket hiding me, cry and repeating, "I'm sorry Leeza" over and over again...