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You Love Me But You Don't Know Who I Am

Part 9.

Gerard pulls me to his side. He lays his head on the top of mine and we walk out of the un-naturally clean hospital. The lady that had let me in waved to Gerard as we left. She seemed to like him more than me so I didn't act.

Once we were out of the scarry death hole, Gerard had walked me to his car.

When I was safe inside is little car he drove me home.

.::ONCE WE GOT HOME::.

I let Gerard use my bathroom. Pain shot through my body, it was more like sleep. To stop the 'tiredness' I flopped down on my couch. God! I haven't been home in like forever! Admiring my home, I reached for my DVD remote and clicked play. Since I hadn't been home, I have no clue what I had been watching then.

Once Gerard got back into the room he noticed that I was crying. "Oh shit!" He exclaimed. I didn't turn toured him, my eyes stayed locked to the figure dancing around the television screen. Gerard ran to me. "Shan?" I didn't answer. Slight smile slaped on my face. Then I felt Gerards flop down on the couch next to me. "Babe... don't tourture yourself." He had grabbed my remote and paused the DVD. "I'm sorry... I just miss him so much!" He wrapped his arm around me. "Well, watching Berth will just hurt you more..." I nod. There was a sort scilence. "Humm... But, lets see what he's got to say now." Gerard un-paused Berth.

We sat next to each other singing along, laughing at Berts dancing and what not. "If You came here with a best friend, I want you to wrap your arm around them..." As Bert was telling the croud what to do, Gerard listened too. Gerard pulled me closer to him. "And give them a big kiss on the cheek..." And Gerard did. "I wanna feel the love in here!" I grabbed onto Gerards arm. We swayed back and forth to the song.

The song ended and Bert had anounced the next. "This songs called Blue & Yellow." My heart skipped a beat. Blue & Yellow was so much more than a song to me, it was my song! That song meant everything, that song was pure heart, pure Bert. "Come here..." Gerard layed me down onto the chouch. He had snuggeled behind me, he rested his head on my shoulder. My eyes were focused of Bert, but my mind was on Gerard. I pulled Gerard's right arm and streched it over me.

"Gerard?" I turn my head a little toured him. "Yes sweetheart?" "Promise me that you'll love me forever..." The hair on the side of my neck tingled by his hot breath. My hand had grabbed Gerards and I held it waiting for my answer. "Yes sweetheart... I promise." He had kissed the top on my ear. I pulled his arm over me more.

By the next song, Gerard and I were fast a sleep.

You Love Me, But You Don't Know Who I Am

Part 8.

"Shannon, Shannon, come on, get up!" I wake up to whisperes in my ear. Hair falls over my eyes, I flip it away. "Huh? What?" Soft shoving comes to my shoulder. "Come on we have to go." The voice sounds familer. "Come on." The keeper of the voice pulled me off the hospital bed. As my eyes adjust to the dark I ask "Who are you?" the keeper grabs me and holds me in front of them. I can feel their breath on my face. "It's me..." My eyes finally adjusted, and I could make out the image of Gerard standing in the dark. "Come on, It's 2:30 in the morning, The hospital has to close up." He laid a caring hand on my cheek. "But, I wanna stay here all night." I say, whipping the sleep out of my right eye. "Sh, sh, sh. I know. But you can't." Gerard held my shoulders. "Ugh! Fine!" My arms flew in the air. "Look Shannon, I'm not trying to take you from Bert, I'm just trying to get you home..." My wrods were short at this time... I didn't know what to say. Even though the room was dark, I seemed okay, the darkness didn't bother me. Gerard wrapped his arm around me. "Lets go..." We started to walk out of the hospital room. Before Gerard opened the door I looked back at Bert just to make sure that he was still... There.

You Love Me, But You Don't Know Who I Am

Part 7.

As I walk down hall after hall, I finally find room 242. When I grabbed the door knob, I hear coughing, and sounds of pain on the other side. I slowly turn it, opening it slightly, and peaking inside. I only saw an empty hospital bed, and a curtain. I walk up to the curtain, I gently grab hold of it. I slowly slide the curtain open. There he is, laying hopelessly, with an I.V in his arm. I can't speak, I can't even move. He turns his head toured me, when he makes me out clearly, he smiles. My heart sinks, and I have no feeling now. Bert turns his head away from the sight of me. The bed is near, but feels so far, But just like me I have to head to it.

  Once I'm right next to his bed I look upon him as if were nothing I have ever seen before. Bert turned his head to look at me again. he quietly laughed to him self. "So this is what you wanted right, me slowly wasting away, gone from your life?" I shook my head. he just rolled his eyes. I laid my hand on his bed. "No Bert, It's not..." I softly say, not caring about the rolling tears. "Then why did you say it?!" His head shot back tourd me. Anger filled his eyes and voice. I looked down. "I didn't think you would take it as an order..." "Well, I did." I lifted my head. "Why?" Bert exhailed. "...Because, Because I love you..." He shouted. I laid my hand on his as he turned his head away. "Bert..." I say again, It seems that all I could say was his name. "What?" He still didin't look at me. I picked his hand up and held it with both of mine. "Bert... I know that it doesn't seem like it but, I care about you, and I'm concerened for you Bert..." "Why?" He snaped his head back in my direction. "Because I Love you!" I scream, dropping his hand. He watched as his hand fell against the white sheets. "You may not believe it but I do!" I didn't sceram it, but It was pretty close to screaming. I studied Berts face before I was ready to storm outta there. Once I had turned around, Bert has called my name. "Shannon! Wait!" He said fussing with the bed sheets, trying to sit up. I hesitate to turn around. "Shannon please." I didn't want to hear him beg, so I turn around and walk back to his bed side. Soon enough he had a hold of my hand. "I... I didn't mean to take your advice sereosly..." We both laughed. He slid his fingers across my hand. bert softly starred at me as I stood beside him. "God, I missed your laugh..." Bert continued his gaze. I hadn't noticed that he was staring at me until he had said something. "I know that it all went down hill when I got you drunk, you had practically killed me when you were like that!" Bert sat up in his bed a little more. I sat down on the end of he bed. "And that why I'm not supossed to drunk!" I said through a laugh. "At the time I didn't know that..." I leaned toured him teasingly and said, "Well now you know..." Bert leaned forward too. I looked into his beautiful blue eyes. he leaned even closer. My lips grew faint. As soon as I knew, Bert had pressed his lips into mine.

When the kiss faded, he smiled. I couldn't help but smile too. "Come here..." Bert grabbed my hand as he leaned back into the bed. I crawled up beside him and cuddeled next to him. He wrapped his arm around me and kissed my head. Softly, I nuzzeled my head into his shoulder and laid my hand on his chest. "I love you..." Bert whispered into my ear. My stumach fulttered, and my heart flew. "I love you too..." He had kissed my head once more as I drifted off to sleep.

You Love Me, But You Don't Know Who I Am

Part 6.

I arrived at the hospital. I always had fears of this place, just all the sick dying people creeped me out. I slowly walked in. There was a middel-aged woman sitting at a desk as you walk in. She looked up at me as she saw the door open. I smiled. It was the polite thing to do. the lady had bright orange hair, a fake tan covered over old flesh, big red lips, and she was waring alot of chunkey jewlery. The lady raised an eyebrow as I came up to the deak. "Can I help you?" she had a thick Jersey accent. "Ugh... Is somone checked in here with the name MacCracken?" I ask looking at the desk. She smacks her gum. "Yeah, room 242." She shuffels papers around her desk, trying to ignore me. I nod my head and continue throught the hospital.

You Love me But You Don't Know Who I Am

Part 5.

*Dark Blue, Dark Blue*

"What?" I breathe heavely. It fells as if I had just got the wind knocked out of me. Tears just started to flow. Gerard pulled me to him as the pain sinked in. I screamed! "No!" I callapsed to the floor. Gerard came down with me. "Shhh... It's okay." I shook my head. Gerards arms were wrapped tightly around me. "No, no it's not!'' The crying was heaver, it hurt everywhere. Inhaling hurt, my lungs were on fire! I couldn't breathe. I thought that the pain would never end. But I couldn't fight this, I had to face it... I needed to see him. I needed to go to the hospital...

I stumble my way off the floor. Gerard, unlike me, stays put. "Shannon, where are you going?" I look at Gerard. I know that I am a complete mess. "I need to see him. It's all my fault he's there now, I need to show him that I still care." Gerard lifted himself off the ground, soon enough he was right in front of me. "You need to rest, I don't want you getting hurt aswell..." He held my face in his hands. "But I need to see him Gerard! I have to go." Gerard pulled me into a hug. "I miss him." I say to his shoulder. "I know." He pulled my away so I can look at him. "I can see it in your eyes... You love him and everyone can tell that." He slid his thumb across my cheek. I smiled. 'If your ganna go see him, you should get cleaned up a little." Gerard smiled and brought me to the bathroom where I washed my face, and combed my hair. Once I was ready to leave Gerard stopped me at the door. "Shannon, Bert is so lucky to have someone as special as you." He as so calm and collect about the things he said, when they wern't a complusive lie... At that moment, everything was fine, nothing was wrong in this moment. But yet this is just one moment, and it was soon to be faded. Gerard hugged me, and kissed my head so friendly, He was just a friend now, thats all he could be.

*Dark Blue, Dark Blue*

~"What?" I breathe heavely. It fells as if I had just got the wind knocked out of me. Tears just started to flow. Gerard pulled me to him as the pain sinked in. I screamed! "No!" I callapsed to the floor. Gerard came down with me. "Shhh... It's okay." I shook my head. Gerards arms were wrapped tightly around me. "No, no it's not!'' The crying was heaver, it hurt everywhere. Inhaling hurt, my lungs were on fire! I couldn't breathe. I thought that the pain would never end. But I couldn't fight this, I had to face it... I needed to see him. I needed to drive to the hospital...~