ADD ShurieRiot95

[[Make Way For The FTD]]

[[<X3]]

“Umm… Well, bye- again.” He muttered, trying not to trip over his heart. She nodded, sealing her self from any form of speech. The door soon dense back into place as she collapsed into pieces. She yanked one of the pillows underneath her head and smothered it over her face, quieting the screams. Her door opened again. With the screams settling, she felt a bounce near the foot of her bed. The pillow was taken from her grasp and settled into the chest of the bounce. It was Alex.

“Awe come on kid. The world isn’t over.” He reassured, nudging her folded knees with his soft fist.

“It is for me.” She whined, snatching another pillow. Alex discarded the pillow once more. As she headed for another one, he grabbed her arm to stop her. She who was lying down and he who was sitting on the opposite side from her had hopped up when he grabbed onto her forearm. This was a very compromising act on his part since he ending up on top of her. Her eyes were filled with shock and fear; his were calm and caring. Chills of warmth shot through her veins from where his grasp had landed. It was soft and gentle. Shannon dared to pull away.

“Stop.” He ordered. She nodded slightly.

“Alex. This is well… umm.” She panicked. He knew what she was getting at. It felt odd for him to be doing this as well.
“Shiz, sorry.” They struggled to get back in order. Alex’s foot got tangled inside once of Shannon’s blankets. He fidgeted around which made her laugh, and giggle.

“Alex! You’re so retarded.” She giggled, causing him to laugh at his own struggles. Then, they began to burst into joy and laugher as they stayed in the awkward pose.

“Shannon Winter and Alex Gaskarth!” Hollered a powerful voice sounded much like Shannon’s father. Shannon clenched her eyes shut as her hands shot back into her mattress. She knew she was in deep shit. She knew that this would be the end of their friendship…

“What the hell are you talking about Jared?” Asked a sweet voice, jumping in next to the powerful one. Shannon opened her eyes just a slit to take a peak. She felt Alex exhale against her as she was surprised to see two teenaged boys giggling at her door. Jared and Mike. They were pointing and hollering like hyenas.

“God Alex, you a beast!” Joked Jared, snatching Mikes hips and walking in. Mike giggled on the count of being really ticklish. “You two can get away with that shit in here, but we can’t?” He asked, pecking Mikes neck and making his way up to his cheek. Shannon rolled her eyes, shoving Alex off of her. She shoved so hard, he rolled off the bed and hit the floor with a loud thump. Jared and Mike were laughing even harder now.

“That- wasn’t what were we doing…” Alex pointed out trying to own all his breath the fall had taken away. The laughing had calmed as Shannon grew tense and uncomfortable. She had her arms crossed over her chest as her spine dug into the sideboard of her daybed. Jared left Mikes hips to join her. He hopped next to her, leaning his head on her shoulder and making a pouty face.

“Awe Shani! What’s the matter?” He asked, bumping her shoulder with his. She shook her head.

“I don’t like Alex!” She cried out. Jared wrapped his arm around her lovingly.

“I know hun. We all know.” He assured, kissing her hair as if she was his little sister. She nodded against the kiss. Mike just stood awkwardly in the middle of the room near where Alex landed on the floor and where he still remained. Jared caught his loves eyes, dancing around the room. He could feel his loneliness. He could reach out and touch it if he wanted to; it was so thick. Jared then scooted from Shannon and pulled Mike to him, wrapping his pale arms around his wiry waist. Mike smiled to him as they were pulled closer. They were nearly the same height, Mike being a little bit taller now that Jared was sitting. Shannon stayed against the metal as Alex sat against the bed posts. Jared and Mike blurred everything around them, just so they could be together. “Awe Mikeipoo.” Jared whispered to Mikes shivering lip ring. He laughed at the sweet nickname given to him. “You know I love you right?” Jared continued. He nodded, easing closer and closer.

“I love you too, Jare-bear.” Mike teased. Jared hugged onto his hips tighter, drawing him closer until their lips met. The kiss was warm and loving. Perfect in every way because it was true. Honest and pure. Like nothing before…

They eased apart, drawing the sparks that their love ignited, into the air.

“Welp. That’s my cue to leave.” Alex slapped his knees, pulling himself from the floor. Jared rolled his eyes at him as he headed for the door.

“You know Alex, you should really have a dude kiss you. It’s the best experience ever.” Jared called to his back as he snatched the knob. Alex shook his head, opening the door and sliding out. Shannon shifted from her bed and chased after him.

“Alex!” She called after him as he headed through the hall. Shannon seized his hand. He stopped, handing her all his attention. “What’s wrong?” She asked, staring into his eyes. He shot his gaze in the other direction. She tugged onto his hand when he did. “What’s your problem?”

“You don’t like me remember?” He blurted, yanking his hand back from her. She shook her head, attempting to pull him in a hug. He jerked away.

“No, Ax- I don’t like you as in I wanna fuck you like… You’re my friend and I love you that way! As friends.” She assured. He exhaled, letting his mind adjust to her honesty before wrapping her in a big bear hug.

“Love you too Shan.” He breathed out through the hug. She smiled against him, letting go. “Okay, there’s band practice. You wanna come?” He asked, side thumbing the stairs.

“What am I going to do with Mike and Jared? By the time I get back they’d already have my room all cummy!” She cringed at the thought. “Ewe…” Alex laughed, swinging his arm around her shoulders.

“Ah, I’m so ganna miss you when we graduate.” He had to bring it up. Tears filled Shannon’s eyes at the thought of losing everyone… Everything.

“Yeah… Same here.” The first tear fell… Then the second. After that- an avalanche of tears streamed down her face. Alex felt guilty for causing the rivers to run. He yanked her into him, trying as hard as he could to stop them. Stop the deep rivers.

“Shani! Now calm down. You have three more years.” He assured, rubber her back gently.

“Only two with you!” She cried into his shirt. The tears sunk down into the cotton of his plane white tee. He hugged her tighter until the water stopped dripping from their ducts.

“Shannon, you just have to savor the time we have now, k?” She nodded, scraping the water from under her outlined eyes. “But I’ve got to go now, you better keep a good eye on those two boys in yo room! You know how teenage boys are.” He pointed a stern finger to her. She giggled, allowing him to leave.

…

Shannon headed back to her room where Jared and Mike were just sitting on her bed, flipping through magazines and joking about all the hot girls. She shook her head at them and their ways. But deep in her heart, she was envious of their love. What they had was sacred and important. Shannon knew that she’d probably never feel that love… Thinking about love sparked up the memory of something very important. What was it? There was something she needed to do.. Hmmm… Oh! Craig! She then quickly logged onto the chatroom in hope of a new username to appear. Her heart dropped at the sight of no one online. Yet again. She was left hanging. And left all alone…

[[<X3]]

The room was dark. All the windows we shielded by blankets. Nothing dressed the walls. Everything felt disdainful. Filled with endless secrets and drowning nothingness. It was forever lonely. How he liked it. The teen was located in the corner of the room, hugging his knees tightly. His mind was being swallowed by the captivating darkness. “Craig honey, dinner!” Called a sweet voice. His mind shot up as did he. He scurried from the ground to the door, clenching onto the knob and turning it slowly, staring into the light shining through all the cracks. Once the light was exposed, he took a second to adjust his eyes before caring on.

Finally making it to the table, he sat down at the end like always. His mother smiled, placing two huge spoon full’s of spaghetti on the glass plate sitting in front of him, along with a large pill. His eyes dug themselves into the medication. He dreaded taking the pill. Even though it helped (rarely) he hated it. It was one of his many anti depressants. He felt as if he didn’t need them, but it’s either take them, or be sent to the hospital. He tried to convince his mom that they didn’t work anymore. He was tired of playing pretend. She forced him to take them, if he refused… She’d shove them down his throat. One time almost suffocating him. He forgave her on the count of him wanting this family to stay together. Even though there was only the both of them, it was still family.

His mother gave him shifty eyes as he continued to stare at the pill. “Craig?” She eased with her voice sounding mighty. His eyes drifted up to her. The arms that he remember to be delicate were now full with rage as they crossed her chest. “Take it Craig.” She ordered. He shuddered at her words.

“Mom-” He began.

“No, Craigafer Mabbitt! You take that pill right now or I’ll force you to take it!” Tears gushed from his eyes as they settled back into the off white, speckled capsule. “Now Craig!” She shouted. He shook at the shock of her voice.

“If you force me to take it! You’ll kill me.” He whined, sounding as he did when he was ten. She then rushed to him, snatching the pill between her long fingers. Craig quickly cupped his hands over his lips. She fiercely yanked his hair, causing his head to shoot back and his hands falling away. He screamed in pain as her fingers lure themselves toured his lips. “Ma!” He curdled under the fallen tears. When her fingers touched his mouth he began to become violent. His legs were frantically swinging in every direction. His hands were clenched onto his mothers wrists as he tried to pry her away. “I’ll take it! I’ll take it!” He screamed, flinging his head away. She grabbed his face with her free hand. Squeezing tighter and tighter until his squirming had settled. Then, as Craig grew weaker and weaker, she finally slipped her fingers into his mouth. Allowing the pill down his throat, Craig began to choke. Coughing uncontrollably. Once she let go, he fell from the chair. Hitting the floor rigidly, his mother graciously headed to the opposite side of the table. She left him as a broken heap of tears. He slowly shuffled up, feeling the fire in his throat.

“You know Craig…” She spoke out, eyebrows raised at her meal. He stood, his hair wet and matted. It was pasted along his forehead, cheeks and neck. His awkward stance could be felt throughout the room. Her eyes shot to him as she continued, “Your father would be very ashamed of you…” His heart dropped as his mind hollowed out. The sensation of that emptiness he had felt when he wasn’t medicated seeped through his veins. His life blurred at the thought of her being accurate. She was right. “Now, I invite you to have a seat.” She offered, flattening her hand against the air. Craig shook his head, turning back to the stairs. “You’re only becoming as weak as that stupid little heart of yours…” She shouted to his back as he continued on.

…

He locked the door behind him, tracing his steps back to the middle of the floor. Setting the box gently in front of him; the silver shimmering latch taunted him. He then slid his hand up to his neck, digging beneath the jaw of his shirt. He was in search for the key. It was attached to a small chain he wore. He always kept his secrets close to his heart… Sooner than he knew- the key was injected into the lock. It felt as if his body was on auto drive. Like he wasn’t him. The click of the unlock burned his eardrums as he slid open the lid. Inside, everything was neatly arranged. Everything from the towel to extra wet-ones just in case. Then, he saw it. The little watch case he kept the blades in. He slowly exhaled, flipping the lid. Once exposed to the new outside world, he slid his fingers down into the case to steel the shiniest one. He knew that the newer the blade- the better the cut. True. He locked everything back up as he scooted himself against the wall. He had a very tight grip onto the little silver liar as he slid his hoodie sleeve down to mid forearm. His eyes met his frail, pale wrist. The blade gently grazed his skin. Mental preparation. He tried convincing himself that he didn’t need it. That it wasn’t worth it. “I- I…” He stumbled as he began to press the edge into his skin. Not blood was drawn from the pressure yet. “I’m sorry…” He whispered to himself… “Shannon… I’m sorry.” With a quick slice, the blade slid across his wrist with much force. He didn’t scream let alone cry. He felt ashamed. Everything he had been working for, he had just ruined with one little cut. Something he didn’t even need and everything was down the drain. The blood continued to run at frantic measures. Craig didn’t mind it. It was beautiful to him. It proved to him that his heart was still beating and his lungs were still breathing.

…

As he now lied in the middle of the floor, covered in dried blood he felt as ease. The demands have subsided for now. Then, as he drowned in his thoughts, a annoying ping noise was sounded. It came from his computer. He slowly sat himself up to peer into the glowing screen on the small desk sitting in the opposite corner from him. He snatched a towel and headed to the screen, taking a seat in the rolling chair in front of it. It was an IM. Then it clicked. He had forgotten to log into the chatroom. Shannon must have been waiting for hours. Craig shot his eyes to the nearest clock. 8:47. Shit! He thought, whipping as much blood off him as he could. He then sat down, flipping on the desk lamp next to him and began the chat.

Logged in as: KittyViolence_Craig
Chatting with: ShannonLoserFace_x

KittyViolence_Craig: Shannon!! I’m so sorry!!

ShannonLoserFace_x: Well, at least you’re chatting now :]]

KittyViolence_Craig: Yeah :]

ShannonLoserFace_x: What were you two fighting about? if you don’t mind me asking

KittyViolence_Craig: Oh, umm.. Dinner :/

ShannonLoserFace_x: XP Really?? Well at least it wasn’t something serious x]

KittyViolence_Craig: XD Yeah!! I guess I was fortunate there LOL

ShannonLoserFace_x: Fersure. :] Hey- Sheri and I are planning a party welcoming the summer break :D You wanna come when all the kinks are worked out??

KittyViolence_Craig: Hellz yah!! Not to sound to eager xP Heehee

ShannonLoserFace_x: Nah dude! It’s cool x] I’m uber excited as well :D The party’s ganna be the S-H-I-Z-Z

KittyViolence_Craig: lolz Fo Sho :D

ShannonLoserFace_x: Oooo!!! Jack is on :D Want him to join our chat??

KittyViolence_Craig: IDC. Your choice :]

ShannonLoserFace_x: OKAY :D I’ll ask him :]

KittyViolence_Craig: What’d he say?

ShannonLoserFace_x: He said that he’s too busy talking to Alex who is only three feet away on his laptop XP Silly boyz

KittyViolence_Craig: LOL :P

ShannonLoserFace_x: Oooo!! Should the party be a costume party? :D

KittyViolence_Craig: OoO YEAH :D

ShannonLoserFace_x: Akk!! Now I’m really excited!! Oh! And if you wanna invite anyone, that’d be awesome n__n

KittyViolence_Craig: :P Okey-Dokey!! Ehhhh!

ShannonLoserFace_x: What’s wrong? :[

KittyViolence_Craig: I didn’t eat dinner… So I’m like starving -__-

ShannonLoserFace_x: Hum.. Wanna meet somewhere so we can get food??

KittyViolence_Craig: Sure :] But where?

ShannonLoserFace_x: DUNKIN DOUGHNUTS :D lol

KittyViolence_Craig: Nummm *drools* okey :]

ShannonLoserFace_x: SCHWEET :D But umm.. How we ganna get there?

KittyViolence_Craig: Well.. I’ll come and pick you up and we can walk there =)

ShannonLoserFace_x: You can’t drive!!

KittyViolence_Craig: Who said I was driving? I can take the bus to your house and we can walk (or take the bus) to DD’s :D

ShannonLoserFace_x: Ohkay :p Well, when are you ganna be here?

KittyViolence_Craig: In like 30 mins… I have to take a shower. Plus the bus is slow as hell -.-

ShannonLoserFace_x: That’s fine :]] Well see you in 30 mins them :D

KittyViolence_Craig: Okay, bye :]

ShannonLoserFace_x: *kisses cheek* bye <3

Craig exhaled, allowing his head to fall against the keyboard; typing unusual words that didn’t exist. He felt so weak and un natural. He just wanted to sleep. But, he knew how important this opportunity is. Going to dinner- well desert with Shannon? The girl he’s liked since the 6^th grade! Once he had time to adjust, he stood himself up. Steadying himself wasn’t usually the hardest task, but today it was. He was wobbling uncontrollably. He felt dizzy from all the blood loss. Come on Craig, you can beat this. He reassured himself. After that boost, he applied himself fully, standing up right and heading down the hall to the bathroom.

[[<X3]]

Bitches get stitches, they end up in ditches. So get the riches! Bitches get stitches! Shannon quickly snatched her phone from beside her and answered. “Hello?”

“Yo hoe!” Called the voice on the other line. Shannon quickly recognized it.

“Shut up Jack, you are not a pirate!” She crossed her free arm over herself and leaned back into the computer chair.

“Awe, just messin’ with you kid. So, what you doing later?” He carelessly asked. She was amazed at how many people were bored this late at night.

“Getting food with Craig.” She replied blankly, knowing what he was trying to offer.

“Damn. I always loose my changes eh?” She rolled her eyes.

“How do you know I would even want to hang with you?” Jack felt appalled at Shannons comeback. He even laughed a little.

“Whoa! Okay. That was a slap in the face.” He made a repulsed face. That really did hurt him.

“Haha! Well Jacky, I really have to get ready now. Bye!” Cheer filled her voice as she pressed the end call key. She flipped her phone closed. Her fingers dug into her dressy eyes, covered in deep eyeliner. She was feeling nervous and excited. She couldn’t wait for Craig to arrive but she knew that she had to get to work.

She hopped up to her closet and began to shuffle through everything. Skipping past shirt after band tee, hoodie after jacket, tight jean after skinny jean. Brain fart assured. Then after at least five minuets of repeated brain freezes, she decided on charcoal skinny jeans, fighting with a brand new Bring Me The Horizon band tee. She had got the shirt from Oli himself for the most recent Christmas. It sure does pay off being friends with musicians girlfriends! She then tugged her chain wallet into place, snapped on a silver studded belt and pulled on her rainbow studded sweat band. Almost ready. She quickly moved onto make up, applying more eyeliner. Even adding red into the corners, just to match the shirt. There. At least 15 out of that 30 minuets have past. She grew bored. And tired. But ruining something like this could break a person. Shatter one really. So, she just sat at her computer desk, plugged in her iPod and cranked the volume. Not too loud that it’d wake her mother, but loud enough.

…

Time past. The music had dulled. Night had awakened. And Craig was throwing rocks are Shannon’s window. The settle little pings surprised her at first. She thought a little bird was trying to get in. She graciously checked, unlocking the latch and lifting up the window, screen and all. “Ready Juliet?” He asked, tossing another rock. It missed and hit the paneling. She giggled to herself.

“Sure am Romeo!” She joked back. He laughed at first before replying with,

“I’m not Romeo! I’m Travis!” They both laughed, knowing exactly what he meant.

“Whatever Cr- I mean Travis!” Craig shook his head with a smile on his face.

“So, you coming down from your tower anytime soon?” He shrugged. She only blushed, heading back into the imprisonment of her room. Grabbing her plain black hoodie, she swung it on and headed downstairs. As she sneaked to the back door, she tried as quietly as she could to grab the set of spare keys dangling on the hook of the key rack. The open door revealed a smiling teenaged boy looking young and pure. His face was thin, but his heart was thick. And beating rapidly. Shannon carefully locked the door behind her as she felt warm breath on her neck. The hairs raised from her neck in shock as chills ran up her spine. “Ready?” His sweet voice echoed through her brain, leaving her heart to twitch. She nodded, feeling the breath relapse back into his lungs. Then, with a twist of fate- she spun around to face him. Their eyes met, their smiles teased and their hearts fluttered until they froze. They froze at the sensation of their hands, meeting in a tight grasp. Shannon slightly giggled as she felt his hand begin to shake. “Oh, err… Sorry.” He then pulled away. They walked it off as they headed down the sidewalk. Nearly inches away which was still too far. Shannon felt bad about giggling at his twitches. So she held in all her breath and prayed that this would work… Her hand quickly skipped up to his as she pretended to trip over her own feet. He acted fast and caught her fall.

“Oh, sorry about that. Stupid sidewalk!” She stuck her tongue out at the concrete underneath their feet. Craig giggled, not noticing their hands still locked into place. Shannon steadied herself once again before continuing their journey. She was confident now that her plan had worked…. Until he let go. It felt as if steam was shooting out her ears she was so angry. That was it. The last straw. “So… You really hungry?” She asked, sounding innocent as if nothing was wrong. He nodded.

“Yeah.” He squeaked, clearing his throat. Shannon then snatched his hand and began to walk faster.

“I’ll race ya!” She offered beginning to take off. He laughed.

“You’re so on!” And then they took off toured happiness. And onto the settled sun… And to Dunkin Doughnuts.

[[<X3]]

Authors note :D
I like it ^-^ Yay!! It took forever and is hopefully worth it :]] I've made a good banner and am still trying to upload it in here -.- like grrr!! If you guys didn't get the whole Travis thing, it was a reanactment of the Check Yes Juliet video by We The Kings XP I know!!! I'm lame :]